University begins, and you find that one guy that your heart is gravitated to. He likewise, gravitates towards you.
But nothing is perfect, and sometimes, the issues are so glaring that you cannot ignore. The first knot ends up being that of christianity, and the second, third, subsequent knots appear.
You wish to cast all cares into the wind and just bask in his affections while it lasts, but you realize that that is a very secular viewpoint on relationships, one, that as a christian, you should not subscribe to.
When away from him you can make the clearest, most determined decisions. But it all crumbles away when you see him once again.
I copied this quote onto the front of my diary a while back. It is by Tim Keller
To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial
To be known but not loved is our greatest fear.
But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God.
It is what we need more than anything.
It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us
Knowing that God’s love is more than enough, and is the only love that can completely satisfy.
Trusting that he will bring the right guy to you , either by making that person the right guy, or opening your eyes to the recognize the correct one.
I don’t want to, and I’m afraid of letting go.
But I know I must, and hence I will.
Because there’s nothing greater than honoring God, and I have chosen to do so.